1. resentment is not about the other person, it's a problem you have with yourself, you feel ashamed because you allowed yourself to feel demeaned. the answer is to build yourself back up and never let it happen again.
2. how do i heal my righteous indignation? what a ridiculous question to ask! what a thing to seek!!
- why am i not allowed to be who i am and who i want to be? what is preventing me?
- these are the questions i ask myself now
- i am psychotherapizing myself. coherence theory. memory reconsolidation.
- biohacking
- maybe i don't know what i am anymore
- It is Time To Ask The Questions Of Myself
- It is time to be born.
This is not a website for fun it is my journal! Thanks <3
This is absolutely not written for any audience it is just a place i barf my brains up and try to make sense of myself for myself.
However, you might like to read it if you are: AFAB probably transmasc, autistic (esp. diagnosed late), middle-aged, depressed CPTSD, oprhan, interested to learn what it's like in the mind of someone who is these tihngs. Previously I have been yelled at a lot by CIS HET WHITE MEN(eyeroll) who want me to stop talking about what I think and feel about. You will have no success at that with me. I am going to stream my consciousness and see the patterns and then break the patterns. By having this public website U are allowed and invited to watch me. But no one is making you read this. Any feelings you have from what you see here, you cannot blame me for. Be well!! Many trigger warnings btw. also i'm not actually a dope it's just a nice non-threatening way to speak ^_^
